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Our Primary Relationship

There is a reason to gather together as sons and daughters of God to celebrate together the fact that we know something about spirit.

We come from the union of Mother and Father God. That’s how we become sons and daughters of God. That is true of every living person on the face of the planet. The very fact that there is life moving through a person indicates that there is divine identity that is enabling that life to come through. Without that, that person would be dead. So every living person I meet is a son or daughter of God.

Our path on this journey as humans has not necessarily been stewarded by mentors who have exhibited the characteristics that a son or daughter of God might exhibit. There are those ones amongst us for whom that has been true, and I’ll acknowledge that and celebrate it with you. Speaking of my own journey, my parents did the best they could, and they did so with limited understanding—no shortage of intelligence, just limited understanding. And then I went into the education system, and the same would be true of most of the teachers that I encountered—they did the best they could, and their understanding was limited. Then, as I was beginning to come into an age of waking spiritual awareness, those ones who provided for me in the religious structure that I was a part of sure did the best that they could with limited understanding.

So I have no grievance against any of those people in my life, because as soon as I became aware of the facts that I’ve just outlined to you, I also became responsible for my own experience. So that’s something that I pay attention to a lot, because I am definitely retraining my capacities to not have any escape hatches, any excuses, any ways by which I can avoid responsibility, because to do so is death. To not live the life I came to live is to be dead.

When I was talking about those relationships which were, for me, the primary relationships at those particular times in my life, I realize that the reason that they hurt so when I realized that what I had been taught and what I had been shown was not necessarily true, was that deep inside me I knew something of the truth but I couldn’t access it. I wasn’t old enough; I wasn’t experienced enough or mature enough to do that. But as I said, once I came to some kind of understanding of that, then the responsibility became mine. I have to live my own journey; there is no way to live secondhand journeys through other people, those who I considered to be dysfunctional. And I say considered, in the past tense, because I have no idea how I would have been in their circumstances. That’s not my job and at this point it’s all guesswork anyway.

What I am here to do is to live the fullness of who I am as I discover who I am. And the other side of that is to be very aware that if I’m taking that privilege for myself, I need to do that for others too—to keep judgment out of the way. I have no idea what your journey is. I’m only discovering mine, step-by-step. I am so fortunate, and I think we all are, to be in the company of people who know something about that.

My primary relationship is with God. We are made in the image and likeness of God; we’re made in the image and likeness of Mother and Father God. If we don’t exemplify that, no relationship in the world is going to be successful for us. It is, for me, as blunt as that, and it’s based on my own experience, so in that sense can’t be argued with.

When I was thinking about what I might say here I made some resolutions to myself. I like asking myself the question “So what is actually authentic to you?” We all know lots of things; we can all talk about lots of things. But what is authentic for me right now? So I wrote some things down, and I’ll see if they’re still authentic as I read them, because this was about an hour ago.

I will restore my primary relationship, no matter my own judgments—of myself and others.

I will accept responsibility for exemplifying on earth the characteristics of my true parents, who are in heaven—not somewhere else up there, but in me. The characteristics of love are blessing, kindness, compassion and protection. And the characteristics of truth are beauty, wisdom, honesty and intelligence. And I and you are made in that likeness. So I have no get-out clause, which is the good news; and the bad news is, neither have you.

I will not accept excuses from my human capacities as to why that cannot be so, why I cannot keep these resolutions.

And I will put an end, in my experience and in my life, to the war of the sexes, which is running as a virus, I believe, in the subconscious realm of humankind. It will pop up every now and again, and it never pops up in a creative way. It’s always destructive, because it’s not real. We’re made in the image and likeness of God, Mother and Father God. So what kind of spiritual amnesia are we living if we let ourselves do battle with the members of the opposite sex?

That’s a really important one to me. I know that there are many who don’t remember or never heard of women’s liberation. I was part of that. I was part of the core group back in the late 1960s, early 1970s, and it brought me nothing but unhappiness. Even though I didn’t know at the time why it wasn’t true that women can go and be liberated apart from men, something in me did know it wasn’t true. I was actually very glad to find a reason to let go of that.

So if we are to have a restored state on the planet, the only way that’s going to come about is as that primary relationship is restored in my experience. That’s the only way that the restoration can happen on earth. We’re here to do that. We’re made in the image and likeness of God, Mother and Father God, the masculine and the feminine, and we’re here to exemplify that in our human capacities, not in some imaginary way.

As I said before, I know there have been lots and lots of well-meaning, honest attempts to live good lives on the planet. I’m thankful for that. And there’s been a missing component. There’s been the inability to acknowledge that we did not create ourselves. We were created. Most of us will accept that. And yet, once we’re created, we think we’re here to run the show ourselves. We are not here to run the show. We’re here to exemplify and bring the will of God down onto the planet, here, where it can do what needs to happen here, where it can start to restore and redress the destruction that we as human beings in false identity have created. We’ve wreaked havoc on the planet, and I’m going to take responsibility for my share in that. I have taken responsibility for that and I will continue to do so. That’s one way to stop me pointing fingers at someone else and saying, “It’s your fault.”

So in order to be able to do that honestly, authentically, which is really all I’m interested in, there needs to be humility in me. There needs to be absolute humility, acknowledging without laying guilt and shame on myself or anybody else, where I’ve failed to be the truth of who I am.

I know that once I have made the commitment to live by those resolutions I made, there is going to be honesty required. I also know what generally happens if I make bold statements: something will come up almost immediately to challenge that. Where is that coming from, I wonder? It may come up through me; it may come up through someone else. It doesn’t matter. It’s not going to be allowed to reign in my experience.

So I don’t mind being humble before God, Mother and Father God. I will not be humble before human nature. For me, that’s where the rubber hits the road. Humility is a divine characteristic when it’s applied in the right direction, when it’s applied to the awesome power that created this universe, the multiverse, and me. Alignment with that will lead the way home. It is already doing that—it’s doing that in my experience. I don’t think I was singled out as someone especially favored in that way. There is rejoicing, I believe, by the angels in heaven as the prodigal sons and daughters are returning home.


Maureen Waller

November 19th, 2012
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One Response to “Our Primary Relationship”

  1. Fiona Gawronsky Says:

    I was listening on the radio to a woman who spoke confidently, “I know what I want, and I know how to get it”. Wow, she exudes power and success, she’s obviously got something… but no, she has no idea, in fact! Thank you for your vision and grounded-ness, the real thing.

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